#53107 - I gasp at the intrusion but he just pushes his finger deeper “God you are still so tight, I love it” he moans pulling me to stand in front of him “Get on your knees I want you to watch something with me” he adds opening a new file labelled James birthday video. Ben asks when we get to school I look up at him not even realising that we have walked all this way without me hearing a word he has said How was your uncle’s party? He smiles dad says you looked so beautiful in your new dress I wish I could have seen It was ok I mumble looking down feeling sick all over again, I hate the look in his eyes, I know he’s wondering why I’m so quiet and is worried about me, but honestly I just can’t make myself care at that moment. The conversation seems full of typical teenage boy topics, girls and computers mainly but my attention span lacks the interest where I would use to be interested.